Is what I think going to make me happy really going to make me happy? Is all this just some sort of test? Is this some wrong road that I do not need to take? I AM CONFUSED!! Am I where God wants me? How do I know if I am where God wants me? Is this time on earth about me changing lives or my life changing? Could it be both? Probably. How does my life need to change? I am never perfect. God should constantly be molding my life…right? What or who am I truly putting my faith in? It needs to be God! Not myself or my job.
Could I, by doing something totally out of the box, help my walk of faith? Maybe change some body’s life by changing mine. If I fall flat on my face could it lead somebody in a better direction? Should I not, as a Christian, be an extreme adventurer…one who is not afraid to take chances because I know who holds my fate?
The way I see it… if everything I do is “cookie cut” then where I am putting my faith. How am I leading people to trust in God if I play it safe is my own life?
Truth is…I am not happy with my job situation and where it is going. I need to set my chains free. Yeah I will be taking a pay cut… but my life can not be the way it is right now for ever. It is too safe. Too Monotonous. I need to find what makes me thrive. If by doing something “out of the box” helps me then so be it. If it does not then lesson learned…right….life is learning lessons.
Some may say it is going to be a mistake….some may say it will be the best thing for my life. Solutions to problems are only solved when you “act” and attempt to solve them. Faith is about having faith. My life has purpose. So I have my Bible (Instructions)… I have Jo Lynn (my sidekick) and I have a great family. Now…all I want to do is discover what this place…this life… is all about. I want to find God in the most peculiar places.
